{"id":2445,"date":"2009-01-27T23:58:30","date_gmt":"2009-01-28T07:58:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=2445"},"modified":"2009-01-27T23:58:30","modified_gmt":"2009-01-28T07:58:30","slug":"i-can-wear-a-mask-of-happiness","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=2445","title":{"rendered":"I can wear a mask of happiness"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>There was a moment a few weeks ago when in extreme sorrow, I shook it off and picked up the phone.  &#8220;Hello?&#8221; I said in a sing-song voice and then continued the conversation without a slight hint of my distraught state.<\/p>\n<p>My parents once observed how easy it was for me to get over things.  When I was little, they could offer a simple desire and then the tears went away&#8230;immediately.  I remember in high school, someone so distressing was simply wiped away when my sister came over to share her fries.<\/p>\n<p>But several years ago, a friend was conflicted.  She saw my journal, detailing yet another college moment of despair.  But when she spoke to me, I spoke of the great wonders, the great comings of the future, the funny happenings to me especially the funny people, light jokes and the like.<\/p>\n<p>A long time ago, I wanted to be an actress.  Despite my difficulty in lying, I found it easy to be someone else because I start believing the lie.  It&#8217;s easy to pretend, but it&#8217;s too hard to forget.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>There was a moment a few weeks ago when in extreme sorrow, I shook it off and picked up the phone. &#8220;Hello?&#8221; I said in a sing-song voice and then continued the conversation without a slight hint of my distraught &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=2445\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2445","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2445","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2445"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2445\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2445"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2445"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2445"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}