{"id":2867,"date":"2010-03-02T23:25:11","date_gmt":"2010-03-03T07:25:11","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=2867"},"modified":"2010-03-02T23:25:11","modified_gmt":"2010-03-03T07:25:11","slug":"separation-anxiety","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=2867","title":{"rendered":"Separation Anxiety"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>There is this comfortable feeling I have on Saturdays.  I wake up, not driven by the alarm clock.  The day is open and hopeful.  It may be sunny, cloudy or raining, but it&#8217;s so full of opportunity.<\/p>\n<p>During graduate school in Pittsburgh when I <i>lived in a different state than my parents<\/i>, empty days were full of possibility.  I loved the dawdling down to the local supermarket, perhaps a stop into the local tea shop&#8230;jogging around the park.  But as the first year passed, it was&#8230;as I realize it&#8230;.was incomplete.  And I would write endless entries in my journals and blogs trying to understand the incomplete piece.<\/p>\n<p>There&#8217;s a part of me that loves being a <a href=\"http:\/\/quirkyalone.net\/\">quirkyalone<\/a>&#8230;and yet&#8230;maybe I am not.<\/p>\n<p>What is the joy in watching a TV show or movie&#8230;when you can&#8217;t ask someone what they thought about it even if you know their answer will always be &#8220;I LOVE JACK BAUER&#8221;?  What is the joy in eating when you can&#8217;t taste someone&#8217;s dish and not feel guilty about spitting it out if it has mushrooms?  What is the joy in going out for tea alone when you can&#8217;t stare at someone across the table in silence without awkwardness&#8230;but only feel comfort of the moment?<\/p>\n<p>I love the weekends, because I don&#8217;t have to ask, &#8220;Do you want to go to [something] with me?&#8221;  Rather it&#8217;s &#8220;How do you want spend your day with me?&#8221;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>There is this comfortable feeling I have on Saturdays. I wake up, not driven by the alarm clock. The day is open and hopeful. It may be sunny, cloudy or raining, but it&#8217;s so full of opportunity. During graduate school &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=2867\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2867","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2867","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2867"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2867\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2868,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2867\/revisions\/2868"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2867"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2867"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2867"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}