Back then. I used to:<\/p>\n
Now…it has transitioned into “normalcy”! I have found different avenues to fill my needs of companionship, of relationships, of…being needed, of being useful, of being a real person and a friend.<\/p>\n
Roger Ebert describes it accurately in a recent post<\/a>.<\/p>\n I was in all words then<\/i> lonely. Social anxiety, sheltered-ness, lack of social skills, word fumbling kept me from interacting with the real world. There was a horrible moment that I had at my high school reunion on Saturday that made me realize that yes, I had came a long way, but it was so easy to slip back to who I used to be. A lonely soul that only wanted to be recognized and most importantly, accepted.<\/p>\n I had sought the internet and it satisfied me. It still does. Like the way I write now. I place the words in this box\u00e2\u20ac\u201dsometimes I have my music on, usually to soundtracks as of late. I think now about the moments now when I am lonely. It’s less. When I am alone, it’s not that I think of how I am missing out…or how I was cruelly rejected. Rather, I am preparing for something\u00e2\u20ac\u201dcooking, cleaning, sleeping…writing. Or I am sending an email, making a comment on Facebook, or sharing something on Twitter.<\/p>\n There will be one day though in the future though…that I’ll remember that feeling of loneliness again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Back then. I used to: Have more online friends than IRL friends Spend my evenings at my computer (for lack of social life, mobility, money) Chat for hours online on AIM with people I had never met in person Hold … Continue reading