{"id":3287,"date":"2010-12-22T23:59:45","date_gmt":"2010-12-23T07:59:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=3287"},"modified":"2010-12-23T00:01:59","modified_gmt":"2010-12-23T08:01:59","slug":"reverb-10-beautifully-different","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=3287","title":{"rendered":"Reverb 10: Beautifully different"},"content":{"rendered":"

December 8 \u00e2\u20ac\u201c Beautifully Different.<\/a> Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different \u00e2\u20ac\u201c you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll find they\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re what make you beautiful<\/i><\/p>\n

When I was 13, I was not shy about meeting people online (unlike IRL). I talked to everyone from people younger than me to people who were older than me. Back then, there was no sense of danger…but I found talking to older people to be boring. In some way, I always thought that I was superior\u00e2\u20ac\u201dI was someone who could string words together and naturally questioned everything<\/i>.<\/p>\n

There was a thirty-something male that said, “Your words are lyrical.”<\/p>\n

I didn’t know whether it was intended to “flirtatious”, but I interpreted it that my skills were stronger than his.<\/p>\n

For years afterwards, I wondered why my words pulled people in. In college, there were people who became entranced with my writing. What was it? It was not my appearance. I showed people my blog\/journal and they would read it incessantly. What was it?<\/p>\n

Was it my naive observations? Or the innocent projections that I had in the world?<\/p>\n

About 5 years ago, I started on a small project as an anonymous blogger. It was here that I threw in my deeper observations\u00e2\u20ac\u201dthe observations that I could write about without an impact on my everyday life. It was here that I wrote about pain, suffering, disappointment, and hope. I wrote purely about my own perspective and laid it out in words. I was surprised that I gathered so many followers, who followed my “lyrical poetry”.<\/p>\n

Was it because I was unafraid of expressing myself? In my candid way?<\/p>\n

During the last week of undergrad in spring finals week, I ran into someone I knew as we had exited the library. Jason. He and I had a huge falling out right after freshman year. We made small talk as we slowly walked in the same direction toward our apartments. I said things my usual way, questioning and prodding. As we walked, I could see him smiling in the dark, shadowed by the street lights. I asked why…why me, why are you still speaking to me<\/i>, after I had treated him so badly before. <\/p>\n

He said, You’re\u00e2\u20ac\u201dyou’re\u00e2\u20ac\u201d<\/i>. And he paused, trying to find the right words, just…different.<\/i><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

December 8 \u00e2\u20ac\u201c Beautifully Different. Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up. Reflect on all the things that make you different \u00e2\u20ac\u201c you\u00e2\u20ac\u2122ll find they\u00e2\u20ac\u2122re what make you beautiful When I was 13, … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3287","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3287","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3287"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3287\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":3295,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3287\/revisions\/3295"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3287"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3287"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3287"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}