{"id":4017,"date":"2012-07-18T23:58:19","date_gmt":"2012-07-19T06:58:19","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4017"},"modified":"2012-07-19T00:01:24","modified_gmt":"2012-07-19T07:01:24","slug":"i-think-that-i-remember-who-i-am-now","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4017","title":{"rendered":"I think that I remember who I am now"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Under the influence, you make decisions that you think that you made on your own\u00e2\u20ac\u201dbut they were so affected by others.<\/p>\n<p>You make them because suddenly in that moment, you lacked conviction.  So you ask, <i>what should you do?<\/i>  And you take their advice without thinking <i>is this what I would really do?<\/i><\/p>\n<p>So when you finally pull away, you realize that you would have never done those things\u00e2\u20ac\u201dyou never liked green, you always hated eggplant and you love cilantro, and you love listening to Lady Gaga.<\/p>\n<p>You emerge perhaps a better person, because now you know yourself.  But you&#8217;re sad for all the days you spent compromising.<\/p>\n<p>Especially since you used to say that you never compromised yourself.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Under the influence, you make decisions that you think that you made on your own\u00e2\u20ac\u201dbut they were so affected by others. You make them because suddenly in that moment, you lacked conviction. So you ask, what should you do? And &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4017\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4017","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4017","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4017"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4017\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4019,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4017\/revisions\/4019"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4017"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4017"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4017"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}