{"id":4507,"date":"2013-11-25T22:51:05","date_gmt":"2013-11-26T06:51:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4507"},"modified":"2013-11-25T22:51:05","modified_gmt":"2013-11-26T06:51:05","slug":"no-more-but-i-didnt-know-how-to-say-it","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4507","title":{"rendered":"No more, but I didn&#8217;t know how to say it"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;Please deliver a letter for me,&#8221; the email said yesterday night.<\/p>\n<p>I stared at it for a minute.  My eyebrows furrowed, and my stomach clenched.  Taking a deep breath, I closed my laptop and opened up Candy Crush Saga for the third time that day.  I drifted off to sleep as striped and wrapped candies appeared.<\/p>\n<p>In the morning, my phone started ringing around 9 am, jerking me awake from my uneven sleep.  Groaning and rolling my eyes, I glanced at the caller id and fumbled for the &#8220;ignore&#8221; button.  In a few moments, I heard the gentle ding of the voice mail notification.  I listened and rolled over in bed.  I closed my eyes, drafting a reply.<\/p>\n<p>I sent an email with every sentence beginning with &#8220;I feel&#8230;&#8221; and &#8220;I am concerned&#8230;&#8221;.  I looked over my four sentences carefully.  No accusations.  No disrespect.  Just simple statements of my situation and my context.  Just clear explicit sentences of what I wanted.  An apology to appease his request.  After all, it is only a request, not a demand.<\/p>\n<p>Then I clicked send.  Would that snuff it out enough?  Would it be enough?  Moments later, I received a response.  It was what I wanted.  But inside me, I could feel the desire to punish and shame people.  But I resisted and wasn&#8217;t it easy&#8230;wasn&#8217;t it just easier to get what I wanted?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;Please deliver a letter for me,&#8221; the email said yesterday night. I stared at it for a minute. My eyebrows furrowed, and my stomach clenched. Taking a deep breath, I closed my laptop and opened up Candy Crush Saga for &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4507\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4507","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4507","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4507"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4507\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4508,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4507\/revisions\/4508"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4507"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4507"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4507"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}