“It’s always a female role,” Chris said when I described my favorite role in a game.<\/p>\n
I can’t help it. I want to be the person who heals. The one who makes other players feel better, feel good about themselves, and give them the energy to succeed. I am less interested in being the one who “succeeds”, the one who gets the gold, the one who gets the gold. I want to be the cranks behind the scene that everyone must rely on in order to get to the end.<\/p>\n
Several months ago in a creative writing class, a prompt asked, “What would be your ideal writing environment? What would be your worst?”<\/p>\n
For the latter, I wrote about feeling uncomfortable\u00e2\u20ac\u201da place where my allergies were acting up, where my writing utensils were unreliable…and most importantly a distracting feeling where my anxieties, stress about the past, present, future were overwhelming the present. Usually about myself and others.<\/p>\n
But the former, it was in a dreamlike moment of the day, usually in the early morning. Where I could hear the soft snore or breathing of a loved one knowing that they’re safe. A clear signal that they’re resting and that they’re alive. Where I can see the world waking. That feeling of control.<\/p>\n
I want to be the healer. I know this. I played Fat Princess and I wanted to be the priest. To grant wishes, to grant positivity. To be whole once again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
“It’s always a female role,” Chris said when I described my favorite role in a game. I can’t help it. I want to be the person who heals. The one who makes other players feel better, feel good about themselves, … Continue reading