{"id":5199,"date":"2015-09-17T22:13:03","date_gmt":"2015-09-18T05:13:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5199"},"modified":"2015-09-17T22:13:03","modified_gmt":"2015-09-18T05:13:03","slug":"you-stay-because-you-are-needed","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5199","title":{"rendered":"You stay because you are needed"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;We need you,&#8221; they say.<\/p>\n<p>I falter when I hear that.  I hear that I am needed, and my heart tickles.  A burst of serotonin has touched my brain, and my reaction is to want more.  I want to hear that I am needed, and I&#8217;ll do anything to hear people say that again.<\/p>\n<p>So what I am doing is making people feel like I am needed?  <\/p>\n<p>This is the addiction of work and jobs.  The reason why people can&#8217;t pull away.  They want to be part of something, something greater.  And when people call for help, our instinct inside says, <i>go for it, let&#8217;s get more of that<\/i><\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s risky, because I know that it&#8217;s not what I want.  But then I hear that I am needed, and I stay.  How can I deny that they appreciated me?  How can I say that I don&#8217;t want to help you anymore?  How can I deny that people would suffer if I wasn&#8217;t there?  There&#8217;s a superiority complex and unhealthy dependency at play.<\/p>\n<p>I see it clearly.  But I say that I will go.  Eventually.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;We need you,&#8221; they say. I falter when I hear that. I hear that I am needed, and my heart tickles. A burst of serotonin has touched my brain, and my reaction is to want more. I want to hear &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5199\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5199","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5199","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5199"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5199\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5200,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5199\/revisions\/5200"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5199"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5199"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5199"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}