{"id":5864,"date":"2018-12-16T17:13:31","date_gmt":"2018-12-17T01:13:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5864"},"modified":"2018-12-16T17:13:31","modified_gmt":"2018-12-17T01:13:31","slug":"2018-letting-go","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5864","title":{"rendered":"2018: Letting Go"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><i>Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why?<\/i><\/p>\n<p>In <a href=\"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=3278\">2010<\/a>, it was a person. In <a href=\"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=3798\">2011<\/a>, it was an idea.  In <a href=\"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4147\">2012<\/a>, it was a symbol represented by a person.  In <a href=\"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4553\">2013<\/a>, I let go fear. In <a href=\"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=4955\">2014<\/a>, I let go of humility (or the desire to appear humble). In <a href=\"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5284\">2015<\/a>, I let go of perfection. In <a href=\"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5583\">2016<\/a>, I let go of expectations. In <a href=\"http:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5775\">2017<\/a>, I let go of things and people I don&#8217;t need.<\/p>\n<p>This year? I thought about the past year and realized that I had already done lot of carving out of things\/people that I didn&#8217;t need. I am a less stressed out about things hovering around me (minus the actual physical things around me).<\/p>\n<p>What I did let go was constant discovery.  The need to try and discover new things. When I first moved to San Francisco, strapped with an expensive apartment, I felt compelled to do something every day, to prove to myself that I was not wasting my time living in San Francisco. I was out each night, always busy every evening, seeing a new person, building friendships.  But in the past year, especially after Chris moved in, I am rather content to do the same thing every day and every weekend.  Those &#8220;netflix and chill&#8221; days?  Works for me.  Eat dinner at the same time every day? Go to sleep!<br \/>\nSounds good!<\/p>\n<p>I can tell that I am falling into a consistent routine.  Part of me worries that all my days will blur together and I&#8217;ll become a robot, unaware of the days.  So I&#8217;ll have to be checking that regularly so that I don&#8217;t lose sight of the curiosity and excitement.  It&#8217;s not that routine means that I can&#8217;t be curious or want to try new things.  It&#8217;s more that now I really want to know that it&#8217;s worth it to go beyond my routine.<\/p>\n<p>Perhaps the reason is that I didn&#8217;t have something better in my routine.  Now I do.  The new things often are disappointing and I know that.  So if there&#8217;s a chance for something interesting and new, prove to me first.<\/p>\n<p>Otherwise, I am thrilled with the routine.  The sameness.  The contentment of being okay with the way things are.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Let Go. What (or whom) did you let go of this year? Why? In 2010, it was a person. In 2011, it was an idea. In 2012, it was a symbol represented by a person. In 2013, I let go &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/?p=5864\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5864","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-reflection"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5864"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5866,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5864\/revisions\/5866"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5864"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5864"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/of.jennism.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5864"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}