Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail.<\/i><\/p>\n
In 2019<\/a>, it was the moment that I realized that he was actually…alive and<\/i> whole. In 2018<\/a>, it was the moment that we realized that the car would start. In 2017<\/a>, it was the moment (or moments) that I deeply connected with a group I had just met at a conference where I thought I would have been antisocial (or just horribly socially anxious). In 2016<\/a>, it was the moment that I felt in the flow in telling the story of Ice Cream Travel Guide<\/a>. In 2015<\/a>, it was the moments after my hat was “stolen” in Rio. In 2014<\/a>, it was a moment in a writing workshop that I had achieved greatness. In 2013<\/a>, it was talking to Yasar Usta in Istanbul. In 2012<\/a>, it was using the ocean as a “big toilet” while floating outside Palawan. In 2011<\/a>, it was my birthday moment. In 2010<\/a>, it was the success in Journey to the End to the Night.<\/p>\n Sometimes when I look back at moments where I thought that I would be very alive\u00e2\u20ac\u201dreading my own work, successfully planning some event and relishing the praise, talking to someone (who I think that I am getting closer to), or being in very social connected moments…it feels disconnected. I don’t feel quite in my body. I don’t feel like myself. Like I had concocted all of it as if it was meant to be perfect and designed. But the feelings aren’t there.<\/p>\n Instead in the past year of many things, I don’t know what that moment was. It likely was a quieter moment where I successfully created something. Bread. A story. Growing tomatoes. Holiday video. The aliveness is barely social. The aliveness is just the pleasure of being me and there.<\/p>\n Last year, I realized that this question is simply a synonym for “when you were the happiest?” Which directly I would answer as when I could stay at home. Which is the complete opposite of everything that everyone else wanted. I literally am tired of performing. And yet, my antisocial tendencies are coming out.<\/p>\n Perhaps it is the moments when I wake up and think “I don’t have to go anywhere today.” Maybe it’s the creation of a video as I always enjoyed. The fact that I can create something and send it out to the video.<\/p>\n It’s rather interesting that I am so drawn to creation. That just like so many years, I was so excited about creating any video. That as my energy goes into creating, developing it, editing, and everything…that it still makes me so happy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Moment. Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year. Describe it in vivid detail. In 2019, it was the moment that I realized that he was actually…alive and whole. In 2018, it was the moment that we … Continue reading