2015: Making

What was the last thing you made? What materials did you use? Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

In 2010, I made xmas photo. In 2011, I made metaphorical things—that were intentionally symbolic of relationships and history. In 2012, I made ice cream. In 2013, I made design. In 2014, I made “my room”.

The last line of my entry last year bemoaned the fact that I hadn’t made my book. But this year, I DID. It is the very last thing I made.

Through lots of sweat, blood, and tears, I did it.

On January 1 of this year, I decided that I had to finish this book. It was the worst burden to have weighed on me my entire life. A burden that I decided to take on willingly.

So I pushed through the remaining writing. The remaining editing.

And then…

At the end of November, after a month of begging the person, I realized that I couldn’t entrust him to finish my book layout. In the worst way possible (just like many potential contractor relationships), I was realizing that the project wouldn’t be done to my specifications. What I wanted was clearly enough in front of me. Perhaps, I didn’t articulate it enough. Perhaps, I didn’t get enough motivation. And all that resulted was simply that: my book was delayed.

I had to take control.

So I pushed myself through the horrors of Indesign, photo selection, Photoshop.

And then I was done.

I made my book.

All I need to do now is press the button that says “PUBLISH”.

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