And finally pictures! The Vienna Teng concert! On Tuesday, I had arranged with my supervisor to leave at 5, but I felt guilty for leaving right in a middle of a job so instead I left Berkeley at 5:45 pm. As a result, I was stuck in heavy traffic going south on 880 toward San Jose. Not to mention, I was driving the NEW CAR. Despite having the great (standard) sound system entertaining me, I was anxious about driving. Afraid of scratches, et. al I also got lost on the way to Mae\’s house and Montomgery Theatre. Somehow, we still got there on time and was squeezed into the side. The concert was sponsored by some Christian organization. All proceeds benefited their mission to Tijuana. The concert itself was great. Vienna talked about every single song, what it meant to her and why she wrote it.

There are times I wonder why I am so defensive. I lack the quality of politeness (occasionally). In that sense, I am bull-headed and self-centered. I always want to be right. Yet, I always maintain my own integrity. Is this why I attract attention of older people when I was 13? Because I never stopped fighting, because I just couldn\’t, because I always wanted the last word, thinking that I was consistently better than them. Why am I so easily swayed by the comment, \”I want to see you again because you\’re interesting.\” And is that why, I have incidents like yesterday and like last summer? How did yesterday\’s dinner ever succumb to the question of \”is it more shallow to go to a school because of its name or to go to a school because of its football team?\” But at least, they answered the \”do you watch porn\” question! :D

Last summer, I said I liked to do things that started with the letter M (as well as meet guys from states that start with the letter M). They couldn\’t guess and I laughed. I eventually said mind games and manipulation. But it\’s a whole year since I said that. Another chapter of my life is brewing and perhaps there\’s something else waiting for me.