Lately, I have been having headaches without unknown causes. Could it be a lack of healthy food especially because of the 6 lb burger? Could it be because of my constant listening to music? Could it because of the undue stress I have had worrying about my future? Could it be because I felt emotionally drained yesterday because my friend was once again lamenting his inexperience?

One worry. Should I spend $5000 to take Game Design next semester? It is taught by the world-famous Jesse Schell, originally an imagineer in Disney, leading several sucessful projects there. I have heard about how great this class was, but this was from people who are natural-born gamers. I, on the other hand, despite receiving my first game console at 8, I never got into gaming. I am what people call a sore loser. I can start playing a game, but once it seems that I am losing, my interest declines rapidly. Video games can garner my interest for 24 hours at most. During my undergrad at Berkeley, I spent a lot of time learning the stories of games. Final Fantasy and the like, but I would refuse to take part. I enjoyed watching my (male) friends play. So then, why should I take game design? It is not meant to teach people how to build games, but rather a correct for method for conceiving a game. Yet, I am interested in the process and why games capture so much attention.

Like most artists, I have a desire to create something to let people escape reality even for just a moment. To leave troubles behind or to share an experience with another. Games like my other addiction of writing can do that. But I am not even close to what people describe as a girl gamer, could the class game design really be for me?