For the last few weeks, I couldn’t help but play a lot of lumines. As a result, I couldn’t help but whenever I was sitting idly, blocks would appear in my hand and I would start thinking about how I would rotate those 4 squares so that I could make more squares. Those checkered blocks so hard to get rid of.

It was a good game, but finally last weekend, I couldn’t take it anymore. I was walking around, enjoying a day outside when those blocks would enter my head and I had this horrible urge to just beat the next level. Just. Beat. The. Next. Level. And it will be ok.

Fortunately, I beat all the CPU levels and the feeling almost evaporated.

Then I played GTA IV. A few moments after, we went to drive to a farmer’s market. I said almost thoughtlessly, “What if we could go through red lights and steal cars?”

And then that’s where the line begins to blur. I am curious if a car can be stolen that easily like in the game, but then what? I would be ridden with guilt and shame. Because unlike the video game, it’s real.

Fortunately, playing Burnout made me feel sick and I didn’t spend that much time thinking about how my car could smash other cars.