I know what it means to me.
I need you, because I want you to be here.
Instead, it comes out as Can I hang out with you? coupled with a caveat of I don’t want to be intrusive if you’re busy. And it quickly agrees to an excuse of Oh it’s ok…it wasn’t that important anyway.
This is where my cognitive dissonance comes in…and for 10 minutes, I can feel ok. Only 10 minutes and suddenly all I wanted to say in the first place was I need you.