As if it was all dandy and good. But honestly, I am super privileged. My immediate family, at least, were cautious and risk averse, even my parents who seemed to expressed a desire to leave their suburban house. “But you don’t understand,” they said. “We are retired. We don’t have anything to do.”
I would say all of this and more:
Felt so much relief that I didn’t have to be perceived, didn’t have to perform, didn’t have to negotiate
Appreciated the fact that nobody was doing anything
Learned how to bake sourdough bread
Taught myself how to actually use the produce that I have instead of referencing thousands of recipes although I still do that
Killed some plants both with overwatering and underwatering
Grow to love podcasts as they created voices in the background
Know how to create a zoom brainstorm effectively
Learned which of my friends valued social justice in the way that i do, but also realizing that…did it matter if they didn’t????
Still do not miss hugs
Did so much writing than I did previously
Adjusted how I considered my spending
Realize that routine give so much solace
No matter what, I may never get through my entire tea collection
