The last summer has sucked away a lot of my social anxiety, although now I am worried a lot about my repercussions of speaking aloud. I feel like I am more annoying and obnoxious now. And then I think, if I had said nothing at all, people would only think of me shy…rather than loud and rude.
On Sunday, I had little fears of making a 5 minute speech to 500 freshmen along with 10 VERY OUTGOING RAs. Today, I had to make 5 minute speeches several times throughout the day to rooms of 30 residents. And not only that, I had to make conversation with new people I met every 15 minutes.
At the same time, I know I am deeply cruel and sadistic. If I had a bigger voice, I would be a major BISH. That worries me.
with great power comes great responsibility, grasshoppah :).. although i don\’t think it\’s completely terrible to give freshmen a little dose of reality along with their bubbly excitement of being away from home and finally getting a real chance to define themselves.. errm… does that make me a biznitch?.. college is a series of reality checks one after another, at least it was for me. =^_^=
Who needs social anxiety? Frankly Im shocked you talked to all those people. If your going to be more out-loud, thats great, but remember, you cant make everyone happy, so dont try. Some people just arent worth that effort anyways. NTNAN