I am not sure if it is to the day. But it has been 10 years since I experienced one of the most traumatic events of my life. It was the event that one could say was a turning point..or a down point. The one that encouraged the development of my social anxiety and my distaste of superficiality. I wish I could joke and say that it was something dumb like the day I learned how to pronouce lingerie (that was in 7th grade btw). But it wasn\’t…and I probably have repeated it several times before, \’twas the heather incident.
I remember after it happened…I always wondered whether I would have a chance at being \”normal\”. And because I had determined that I couldn\’t, I adopted the motto of Don\’t be normal; be different. And as a result of that incident, I rarely wear outlandish clothes. Or bright colors. And I wince if someone makes a comment about my clothes…always on the edge of fear that I am not wearing something normal. Yet, I shouldn\’t always blame things that happen now on things that happened a decade ago. If it wasn\’t for Heather, would I have more confidence than I have now? Or would it not have made a difference at all? If I had succeeded, would I have always stayed vengeful?
But I still go out…with uncombed, unbrushed hair.
JENN! Your link is incorrect, its http://of.jennism.com/bio/heather.html, not http://of.jennism.com/bio.heather.html like you have it! You ask if Heather hadnt been there to torment you, would you have been different, and to that I say, only if there were no Heathers in the world, but there are plenty. I know many of us have been in a similar place in our lives, and I dont know one person who can say that middle school was a time of fun, self-assurance, and peace in their lives. Thats what college is for.
OH TANNER.
Eh, college is more like stress, stress, and did I mention stress?
I like your hair :0)