I am not currently fit (or in the best mood) to talk to anybody. Doh.

I wish that I can say that I have been antisocial lately as of late. Or that I can blame the stress of my graduate applications and the pressure from my parents to succeed (my mom keeps calling all this an unusual time). But really, I wonder if it\’s my personality change. A malanthropic feeling cursing through my blood? Or just a need to consistently argue and debate? My bubbling insecurity appearing as needy self-defensiveness?

Hey, what\’s that physical pain you talked about?

While sitting at my computer late at night, I hear creaks in the house. With my sister here for almost 2 weeks, I instinctively think it\’s her walking around her room. But then I suddenly realize that she already flew back to San Diego and that I am alone once again on this part of the house. It\’s weird like that when you get used to someone being around. Then you whip around and see that empty chair. A small tinge of loneliness strikes you hard in the heart, but you remember that they\’re still there…somewhere…out there. And knowing that I will feel exactly that way…soon.