Thank you, Tram. :)

I don\’t know what it is, but it\’s so hard to become friends with somebody if you\’re not friends with their inner circle. You don\’t want to be intrusive, but you don\’t want to be left on the outside either.

Just let me in the circle, puleease!

I was so cruel and so mean back in the day when I had \”internet penpals\” in high school. At the end of that phase, I had created several enemies, because I couldn\’t take the fact that some people had a so-called better life than me. Sigh, if I hadn\’t been so harsh, I still would have a lot of good online friends. They admired me for my depth and honesty. Also not to mention, they admired my eloquence at writing. One said that I was not like everybody…whatever that\’s supposed to mean. And they listened to me…but maybe that\’s what made me go insane in the first place.

Well, I was going to blog about how someone should remind me not to read my ex-boyfriend\’s old e-mails from 1998 (we weren\’t together yet) again. But then I came across this by someone who called himself Anthony James Wu who said that I was touchy and sensitive (note he was double my age then) and who thought that 22/7 was pi:

> I am starting to think that you are pretty…and that maybe you had a bad
> experience with another penpal….you sent him your picture and he fell
> in love with you and wouldn\’t leave you alone. Then you had to call the
> police…and now you bear the guilt of having to put someone away. I
> think with me, you don\’t want to send a picture because you are falling
> in love with me and you are afraid I won\’t reciprocate.
It is after years of online experience. You know how people were like
after World War II? They were outrightly cynical and sarcastic. I am
trying to live up to that standard. Falling in love? Ha! Far from that! I think of you as a wheel. When I push you, you roll. When I brake (with eraser pads of course), you get white smears. When I throw you, you bounce because you\’re made of rubber. I could go on and on.

It makes me laugh at how cynical I was at responding to his e-mail. He thought I was too confusing and too \”mature\” for my age. What happened to all my dry humor? Ah….UC Berkeley, of course. :p

*sob*

Remind me never to visit my old boyfriend\’s page again.

Friday Five time!

Because of my CS midterm, I forgot about this…otherwise I would have been in the top 50 instead of the top 500.

1. What\’s your favorite animal?
Anything that is cute and fuzzy. Recall Lenny from Of Mice and Men. Oooooh, that\’s so cute! RIP! TEAR! *dies*

2. What pets have you had in your lifetime?
A fish named Dead.
Another fish named Deceased.
And yet another fish named Gone.
They\’re playing the nice role of fertilizer now. ;)

3. Is there any specific pet that you\’ve wanted but never had? Why?
I have always wanted a Gray African parrot, because of the book I read when I was young-Mad Max. The parrot was actually smart! But financially speaking, such a parrot is hard to come by. Also too, my family aren\’t the animal lover types. In fact, we might be the opposite. We have the tendency to be allergic to anything animalian. Yes, even humans.

4. Are you allergic to any animals?
Ah, what a good lead-in! Hehe. I am supposedly allergic to dogs and cats, but I haven\’t really experienced an allergic reaction when I am around them. But sometimes I will tell someone that just so that the meow cat will get out of my way. Vicious? Maybe. :) But it\’s better than me suing them hehe.

5. Do you have any \’pet\’ pet peeves (your pets or others\’)?
Dogs who are mean to passerbys. Like…those that rip up meter readers. I remember when I was a canvasser last summer that I had to come face to face to many dogs that were trained to bark at strangers. I wasn\’t scared, but I was surprised all the time. But the funny thing is, to annoy the whole neighborhood, I would stand in front of the fence and stare at the dog. The barks would make people come out and start wondering why this girl with a clipboard in her hand was watching a dog bark…

That was just so fun…and weird. Sometimes you can\’t associate a face with a voice and I am really bad at doing that.

I got to talk to Naim (callin\’ it up from Michigan!), Stacee (hollerin\’ it up from Alameda), Herb (gamin\’ it up from SoCal), Paul (echoin\’ it up from Naim\’s room), my sis (FOBBIN\’ it up from San Diego) and me (crackin\’ it up from Berkeley) all using the power of a conference calling on a cell phone(s) with free long distance…and unlimited nights/weeeknds. Everyone should have a cellphone!

Ah…yet another wacky, depressing midterm.

Looks like I am headed for cognitive science.

I finally met up with Jody, my childhood friend who I haven\’t seen for 10 years. Interestingly enough, she looks the same. :D She said that she wouldn\’t have recognized me, although I wonder though with that mole of mine\’s…

I dragged her along to dinner with Tram, Xing, Hien, and Christina. Vietnamese food? Somewhat okay. Chicken or beef in coconut milk? It\’s not as bad as you think.

My CS midterm review was on the thin line of being useful and utterly useful.

The first room we were in was crammed. I arrived just right before the review started and all the seats had already been taken and the aisles were filling up fast. I stood in the back when Richard came. Coincidentially, the guy in the seat closest to us decided to leave. Empty seat. Richard promptly moved toward it disregarding me until his friend said something about how girls are supposed to first. In return, I refused to submit to the old-fashioned value of how females must get all comfort.

\”Turn off your testosterone!\” Richard said. He paused…then took the seat. I stood during the entire review until we moved to a larger room.

I don\’t know the review was so amusing, but people kept asking the same questions over and over again. \”What is REFHI? What is REFLO?\” \”Have you seen the midterm?\” \”Are we responsible for I/O?\” \”Why is there a 1?\” [Funny…the entire room cracked up at that…because…there is always a 1…now I don\’t even know why it was funny.]

Now I owe Richard some jack.

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