You have an interesting weblog and an equally interesting life. You don\’t need to exaggerate to make your stories sound exciting. They already are. You have a small circle of friends, both online and offline, and they all love having you around. You\’re an all around nice person and the best friend anyone could ever imagine having.

Who would have known? It\’s no wonder that my roommates described me as \”interesting\” to their friends with my daily problems and crisises. Can I be boring? Naaah I don\’t think so! :D

Just one year and one day ago, I wrote this poem. So here\’s the question, would you rather have loved and lost or not loved at all?

What is up with this…the world against me or something? Every time it rains, I don\’t have my umbrella. Every time I have my umbrella, it doesn\’t rain. So I went to Berkeley downtown after my last class because I needed cash, but then I was caught in a downpour. So I walked three blocks from the bank in drenching rain to Baja Fresh. I dripped throughout the restaurant. Then after my small dinner, I ran back outside and walked three blocks in a light shower to the bus stop. Fortunately, the clouds took pity on me.

When you want some way of relieve your stress…relieve your depression from an EE midterm…write poetry! How about some magnetic poetry? ;)

Okay, now I have reason to really have a mental breakdown. I really did horrible on my midterm. And I would not want to drop the class. But then this is the last of my prereqs for CS which I need to declare by the end of this semester. dreams shatter And if I did drop, I would have to retake the class later on…and that\’s the last thing I want to do.

*sobs*

Correction: I had an anxiety attack.

I am still not insane. Wait, I hear a voice, but there\’s nobody there. THUNK. THUD.

ARGH! I take that back! I had an emotional crisis. That\’s all. Yes, I still can go to school. Yes, I still function properly. No, I am not in such a severe state that I need to go to the hospital. I am okay, really. You want proof? It\’s not me, it\’s you!!!

I had a nervous breakdown today. I had leave the cs lecture once. Then it got progressively worser in EE where I had to leave twice. You can read about how psychotic I became in my journal (that is, if you have access). A nervous breakdown definitely isn\’t a good sign.

Awwww…so this is what happens when I don\’t get addicted to a certain genre of music fast enough. The bands that I love now have already been to the San Francisco Bay area and won\’t be back for awhile. The Get Up Kids was here last year. So was Saves the Day. And as for Sunny Day Real Estate. Ugh, they\’re…just gone. Now I really want to go to the concert in April. Go by myself? What? No! Stacee, please come with me!!!!!!!!!!! :(

I finally finished writing the stories of the two major turning points of my life. Or let\’s just say…the major influences on who I am today.

There\’s the Alan story that happened just last year.

Then there\’s the Heather story that happened almost 8 years ago. As I wrote it, the memories came rushing back and I was a sixth grader again. It nearly made me cry all over again. Haha, but then you\’ll have to read to understand.