LOOK I AM BLOGGING FROM MY INTERNSHIP. OMG. USING UP COMPANY\’S RESOURCES!

And I know it\’s hard
And I know it hurts you
And I know you cry sometimes
And I know you miss her all the time

Sometimes I look back at myself in high school. I wouldn\’t want to call myself a nerd nor a geek. I was an outsider. I tried hard to fit in, but without success. And every day I would look forward to the next day, thinking I could improve myself so much better. I wanted to be somebody else. Somebody that was not me. So I would study people and try to apply the traits I admired to myself.

And then zoom three years later. I have reached many goals and surpassed them. I have had a boyfriend. I have had heartbreak. I have caused heartbreak. I have attended parties. A drinking party. Where I refused to drink. I am allowed to be independent. I can drive more than an hour away without swerving. I have to drop off people. I can look \”beautiful\”. I feel disgust as someone says so. I have gotten a job. I have gone through interviews with success, knowing that I impressed them. I have no dependency on money.

I am everybody, but I am nobody.

First day of internship. It was MUCH BETTER than I expected. 9 interns showed up. Only two were girls though (including me). When I read the ad and had the interview, I had expected a shady internship. The kind similar to a pyramid scheme, but it was contrary to that. Very contrary. And it turns out that I will be learning a lot of things useful toward a future career. :) All I can say is that I remember how at work during the year, people constantly say, \”JENN, YOU CAN DO IT!\”

free lunch! :D

During the interview, I had gotten the impression that the entire company was made up of Chinese immigrants. But there was a guy who did ungrad at Berkeley and law school at University of Wisconsin (omg BEN?)…that spoke perfect English. And to save gas, I found someone to carpool with me. And another person is pending. Seems like the perfect internship so far. I hope I didn\’t speak too soon.

ONLY OMG 3 CLICKS AWAY FROM HOME!

OPEN HOUSE. Want to take a virtual open house of my apartment? CLICK HERE.

When I helped Xing with her open house, I thought that was very tiring. However it is more tiring to wait for someone who did not show.

The first person that showed up was this suave guy who sat in his white convertible in the red zone. Eventually, he finally turned his head and looked at the front door. I told him to find parking. Good boy. The problem here is that I HIGHLY PREFER A FEMALE ROOMMATE.

The second person that wanted to see my place did not show up at the appointed time, but I thought that was okay since I was helping the first person out. I called her and gave her directions. I stood at the corner for about 30 minutes. Then I called her again. And again 15 minutes later. Turns out she is lost? And at Longs (Longs is on the other side of BERKELEY…how she ended up there, I do not know). And that she needs to get a drink. Okay I will see you in at 5 pm or 5:30 pm, she says. (Note: it was already 5:33 pm) I go inside my apartment to fiddle around on my computer some more. I come back outside of my apartment (no cellular reception inside) to call her again an hour later. No answer. I keep getting a busy signal. It almost seems like she is trying not to answer my call, because I would get through…hear some noise and the call would end. I am fed up with the frusturation and call her about 10-15 times while sitting \”idly\” in my car, charging my cell. Then I head back up to my apartment to fiddle with my computer some more. Then I get a voice message from her about an hour later. Whoops got caught up in stuff, got lost and other things, she says. I am nice and let her see the place since she eventually found it. Turns out she is very nice and enthuastic. Yes, but thanks for making me wait 4 hours for you!!!! :p

GAH. At least I will get to meet interesting people doing this sublet. There is this person who is willing to do a household project in exchange for a lower rent. UM NO?

I am starting my internship tomorrow at 10 am. What irks me is that the schedule for the entire internship isn\’t set. That is, some days I may be starting at 8 or 10 am. Others I may start as late at 1 pm. Right now, I am trying to schedule my other \”activities\” (BEN BEN, visiting people – hi amy, hi april, hi mae, hi peggy, hi HIEN and my dental/eye appointments) around it all.

In other news, my parents have been very fussy lately. Especially my dad. I take it because I have been at my wit\’s end at the last week.