I am twenty one now! Yes, but this doesn\’t mean that I will run out and buy liquor…and head out to all the clubs that are 21+. Happy Birthday to me!!!! Must scour the fatwallet birthday thread. I am planning to go to Todai today!

*gives out KRISPY KREME GLAZED DONUTZ IN CELEBRATION*

in other news: I got carded for the first time ever when I went to see Matrix again with Alex. Oh and shopping with Lulu (despite the horrible influence on my wallet, but I resisted!) was fun. :)

realized that I am using too much space on this domain. So it SHALL move again too jennism.com :D *ahem* when I have \”time\”.

It\’s the end of MY semester. Technically, I finished yesterday with my first, last and only final. But I had a perl project due today, which I just turned in about an hour ago. And now, FREE! Until the moment that the grades start tainting my \”fake\” happiness.

Hopefully, I\’ll feel better about all this \”ugliness\” when I see my sissy this weekend. YO LADY!

oh AND

YOU YES YOU ARE INVITED.

my 21st is in only 2 days! But omg I am having a dinnner THAT YOU ARE INVITED TO.

when: friday the 23rd, 8:30 pm
where: Raleigh\’s (2438 Telegraph, Berkeley) which is across the street from Amoeba Records

so if you are stalking me, feel free to drop by. if you aren\’t, feel free to drop by anyway! :D

People often think I am really nice and sweet. Did I not mention there are two sides of me? Do people always forget what I tell them? The user manual of me?

They always say torture is much worse than death. So kill me now. Please.

So…I got the internship at Waintec! NOW I HAVE SOMETHING TO DO DURING THE SUMMER!

The interview last Friday for the internship got off to a bad start when they asked me for my previous employer background and a list of references. I wasn\’t prepared with that, because they didn\’t tell me to bring any information. I asked the interviewer if I could send the information to her later and she gave me a glance…and said no. I don\’t know if she understood me or not. So I had quickly filled in the application with information on my cell phone.

And another bad part was when the interviewer asked me if I was a resident or had a H-1 visa. Confused, because I always thought that the definition of a resident only applied to people who had lived in the country for awhile legally but were not citizens. So I told her that I was a US citizen. Apparently, she didn\’t get it and asked me the question again.

Otherwise, the interview went well (and I am still wondering if she understood the majority of what I said…or whether she was looking for only skill sets). The thing I am most afraid of: working with people who speak Cantonese…

My first, last, and only final was today! :D AND NOW I AM DONE WITH THE SEMESTER…

Yes, I would like to declare publicly that one of the reasons I moved was because of the tension between Naim and me.

And as a result!

A play on words. A play on business. A play on the Matrix. And of course Internet Drama!

Me: well nonetheless, it was nice working with you. I hope to meet you again in the future.
…
Me: there is no choice because you did not choose
Naim: oh i made a choice
Me: what is that?
Naim: i made the chioce over and over again to keep trying and i still am deep down
Naim: i dunno
Naim: for some reason
Me: you must make a choice.
Naim: i dont want to let go
Me: that\’s irrelevant now
Naim: i suppose
Me: what do you choose?
Naim: what are the options
Me: to be treated fairly as a person
Me: or
Me: not to be treated fairly as a person
Me: of course the former requires that I am less of who I am to you
Me: and the latter means that
Me: I will make you feel horrible about yourself nearly every day
Me: except that I will say what I mean
Me: because I easily harbor resentment/bitterness
Naim: can i take the best aspects of each option :P
Me: and the other path, I hold none…except the limitation that you are someone untouched, unscathed…someone who I will not stoop to the level of criticism
Me: no
Naim: yeah i know.. joking
Me: besides knowing that it is you…means that
Me: I will know that I won\’t get along with you
Me: I will always stoop to mind games
Me: if you choose the latter
Me: but if you choose the former, there is none of that
Me: yet this also means more superficiality
Me: choose
Me: and as you realize, as fickle as I am…these choices may only last a month
Me: but such a thing are contracts
Me: and warranties
Naim: i chose to get the honest jenn who says what she thinks… with the following provisions: lets minimize our interactions till you grow up. the way you\’re acting i think is kind of foolish, and demeaning to me as a person. thinking that i should simply accept the choices you present me.
Me: sure why not
Me: they only last a month anyway
Naim: that\’s fine. i\’m still just shocked i guess
Me: okay now go
Naim: one last thought:
Naim: i never stop trying
Naim: and dont block me
Naim: because i still want to talk to you
Naim: just less
Me: okay

It\’s time to use unoccupied.org Hi new home! :D

It\’s interesting what Alex said yesterday while we were studying Ling…

And it took me a whole day to decide that I agree and disagree with certain parts of it.

I had mentioned that I was one of the founders of the BLAH club, which is a blogging club on campus. He bought up the idea that having a club was against everything that blogging is about. That blogging is supposedly something where you create an online persona and have other people interact with that. And he also mentioned how a recent cyberpunk author reflected on his blogging experience…and realized that it had a negative impact on his creativity.

I agree with the part of creativity. I can\’t write like I used to before I ever had an online journal/online blog. Perhaps, it\’s because I find myself writing for an audience rather than myself which was I had intended the entire blog and journal to be about. And it even spreads to my papers and essays. My papers turn out very choppy and graced with long complex conjunctions.

But the community. It\’s not that at all. Consider rbj. The message board is one of most popular aspects of being part of the community. And yes even the-protagonist.com community. It\’s not that we create an online persona and have other people look it in awe. It\’s rather that it becomes more of a support group of whiny teenagers and lost college students. We don\’t have less to say because of it…but more to say. As a result of such communities, we can reflect on ourselves with prompts.

One reason that I blog is because I don\’t want to keep repeating the day\’s story over and over again.

In other news, I had an interview today. The company is made up of people who are obviously recent Chinese immigrants. It was hard for me to understand them. Their accent is similar to that of my mother\’s…but usually I can understand what my mom is saying…but not them. And the odd thing was, the interviewer asked me if I had residency or a H-1 visa. I said that I was a U.S. citizen. She asked the question again. I started to say that I was a U.S. citizen again, wondering if she knew that being a citizen means that I am a resident (am I not wrong?), but instead said that I was a resident. GAAAAAAH.

Remember the plot in The Game? If the movie had ended right when he landed on the cushion, we would have all been mad and given the movie a thumbs down. Except we found out the \”truth\” of why Nicholas was screwed around…and around. That\’s what made it such a good movie.

I really hope that the Matrix turns out the same way. Reloaded left me feeling confused and disappointed. But on the surface, one-liners? Please, I thought we already had enough of that in other movies. The first 30 minutes of Reloaded was a waste and shouldn\’t have been left it. Now that we know that Trinity and Neo are together…there\’s nothing but kissing and sex. If I were her, I would have already killed myself over the amount of skin exposed. Yet the special fx are as always excellent. As well as the set design. Matrix philosophy was good, but not as good as the first one. It\’s sad that the originality is lost in the drive to meet the hype of the first Matrix. I am voting for the Revolutions to end up with Neo waking up in yet another world…and saying OMG IT WAS JUST A DREAM.

And a fantastic review here

I saw the movie at the UA coronent (it was a good theater ALEX despite your doubt!) with Lulu (thank you Lulu!) and several of her friends. And ate at this fantastic Japanese restaurant that had a lot of goodies on the house. IF YOU COME TO CALIFORNIA, I SHALL TAKE YOU HERE (instead of Todai!)

Now to await Revolutions!

I am seeing The Matrix TODAY! BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. BUT NOT YOU LOZERS OUT IN THE MIDDLE OF NOWHERE WHERE THERE ARE NO SNEAK PEEKS! :D