Most of the time, I imagine myself as the extrovert. The one with easy charm and charisma that could talk anyone up. A magnetic personality. Someone that could walk into a group of unrelated people and make a connection instantly. An energetic, vibrant personality.

But that\’s really not me. To some, I am one of the most outgoing people they know. In Pittsburgh my last year, I was able to gather people together–organize events and the like. The driving force, some said, to get events going. But I can\’t constantly do it. I prefer being in the background–a wallflower. I prefer being in a group and observing what people say or do. It\’s much more peaceful. And the thing I love doing the most now…is write, read and sleep. Activities of the loner.

I am tossed in the unknown, where I know almost next to nobody. It\’s intimidating. It\’s scary. Of course, the path is set for me to succeed and connect. But it\’s a strange position to be in when I have gone from a loner to an extrovert and then back again. I love people and what makes me happy is when I can bring people together to interact. And yet, here I am, almost embracing it but treading timidly at the same time.

Aaaaaah, massive headache coming on!

Out of a slight addiction to web 2.0 activities, I attended the SF New Tech meetup today. Unfortunately, the presentations were slightly shaky and not as toned as I thought talks in the real world of the Internet would be.

I personally advocate short talks with a lot of visuals. The rule is if you have 30 minutes, give a 10-15 minute talk. Less text, lots of photos.

But some interesting things:
posticky.com – stickies web application so that it can persist over several computers, but the guy was saying that they didn\’t have a clientside application because it lacked the functionality to automatically update (wouldn\’t there be a way to build this anyway?)

peopleaggregator.com – a great idea to seamlessly blend all social networks together and have a single place to control them all. Except that the guy was a bit obnoxious. After all, he\’s a darling of valleywag.

Until next time. Or whether I can find energy within myself to partake in these activities. It was held at the cnet building and there were drinks provided by a local law firm.

My new job starts tomorrow!

I have always loved the geek life. Or maybe it was just the poseur inside me that loved it. I did work at rescomp for almost 3 years surrounded by geekiness that could not be measured. The nights I remembered were filled with video games and office chair races. And of course, the days of sleeping on the couch overnight because we didn\’t want to go home. And who could forget the late-night runs to Jack in the Box and Top Dog?

Of course, I didn\’t partake in it all. But apparently early-stage startups still would. Geek houses, they call it. At my (bone-creaking) age of 24, I wouldn\’t do it.

Well, ok, maybe just once. I find it amusing how some people get so delirious at 4 am after staring at a computer for 14 straight hours.