For the first time in a long time, I played a sport today. A real sport, mind you. My program is forming a softball team for the summer and out of a guilt trip, I joined it. So today was the first practice.

Once I got to the field, I suddenly felt this flashback of bad memories. The time when I was on a winning volleyball team, but we lost the finals because of me. The time when I got hit in the head with a softball and I had to wear my glasses with tape wrapped around the nosepiece.

And the last time I had picked up a bat was in high school, sophomore year. I was once of those kids. I couldn\’t hit. I couldn\’t catch. I couldn\’t throw. I failed all the skills tests. And…I have this immense inferiority complex along with an explosive tantrum edge. So the teacher tried to teach me the right form. I felt singled out and totally defined as an outsider in the class (the loser, the one who couldn\’t be like everyone else) as I was told to hit the fence. Over and over again. I started crying. I didn\’t want to be like that, embarrassed in front of people who didn\’t know who I was. I hated PE. She asked me if I was alright as class finally was over…and I said no. She couldn\’t say anything to that.

On a side note, that was the only class I got a C in high school. :)

But yeah those flashbacks overwhelmed me…but to my surprise, I overcame that. Somehow this time around, I wasn\’t really an outsider. As a result, I had a little more confidence in myself. Even though I couldn\’t hit most the balls or catch most of the balls, I was able to play sufficiently. And it was fun.

A factoid: The heat generated by a laptop, and the knees-together pose needed to balance it, can damage a man\’s fertility.

Guys, watch out for those heated laptops. Even if it can keep you warmer (than…a warm body) during the winter…

Another piece of triva coming from a slight obsession of Star Wars: Yoda was based on Albert Einstein. WHO IS YODADDY?!

\”Whoa!\” Doug said when he found out that I was 3000 miles away.

I have a feeling that I\’ll be having many of these comments in the very near future.

After the William Hung fanaticism in Berkeley, I was shocked to learn that my friend April was participating in the Asian American Idol contest (by the way, go vote). Yet, singing is one of the very few ways that you can tug at someone\’s heartstrings. How many ways are there in life to really make someone happy…someone sad…? That by singing, you can control people\’s emotions.

In other news, this season of 24 is over. I was slightly disappointed by the plot and how Fox perpetuated incorrect stereotypes. And not that many people were killed this season! :(

Anyway, this season I learned:

It\’s always really irritating when my parents get on my case about taking loans.

So now I am 23. Shouldn\’t I be trying to pay my own way through graduate school? Can\’t I take loans?

Should I really borrow money from my parents? Or should I take my own way…and pay it all myself?

Despite my inner desire to be an extrovert and the center of attention, today I realized that it isn\’t my nature. Nowadays, I am less obnoxious, less dramatic than I used to be. OMG, what has Jenn turned into!!!

It made me happy to see everyone there. :) Everyone I really liked (and the ones who couldn\’t make it…) made it to my party and the hostees of course! It was great. And so awesome to be surrounded by lines of incredibly sweet desserts. Thank you to everyone who came and made my day so special! I loved my strawberry birthday cake although I did make a lame wish.

But it was a dessert bonaza. Right now, I could die in sweet happiness!

So many thanks to Lele, my parents, my sister!, Cliff, Shroom, Noah, Shinelun, Carol, Janette, Charles, Joon, Polo, Hari, Shipra, Daisy, Alex D., Lexi, Alex E., Andy, Sandhya, Lisa, Lorri, Jake, Jeff, Ian, Ron, Karen, Justin, Adi, Mike, Jessica, Thomas, Naim, Rachael

I saw Star Wars: Episode III Revenge of the Sith today! Big spoiler: Anakin Skywalker is Darth Vader! (overused joke har har).

And thanks to Lele who gave me my first 23rd birthday greeting! :)

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From Peggy:

First-year students at Med School were receiving their first anatomy class with a real dead human body. They all gathered around the surgery table with the body covered with a white sheet.
The professor started the class by telling them, \”In medicine, it is necessary to have 2 important qualities as a doctor. The first is that you not be disgusted by anything involving the human body.\” For an example, the Professor pulled back the sheet, stuck his finger in the butt of the corpse, withdrew it and stuck his finger in his mouth. \”Go ahead and do the same thing,\” he told his students.
The students freaked out, hesitated for several minutes, but eventually took turns sticking a finger in the butt of the dead body and sucking on it.
When everyone had finished, the Professor looked at them and told them, \”The second most important quality is observation. I stuck in my middle finger and sucked on my index finger. Now learn to pay attention.\”

Good thing my sister decided to attend optometry school instead!

And with a whoosh, boom, and a click, it is finally over!

Although after 9 months together, I almost feel a small drop of nostalgia. What happened to the predicted fun? What happened to the nights we were supposed to spend gossipping and laughing over our mistakes? What happened to a connection? What happened?

And somehow, it never did.

My last few words to her were: \”That\’s the way life is. Sometimes we can\’t help but be who we are. Good luck with moving. I wish you the best.\”