Food challenges galore!

Reminders to self:

How I am very un-girllike (for my age?):

It\’s 9 degrees Fahreinheit right now! Time to pull those thermal pants so that I don\’t turn into a block of ice on my 30 second journey to the bus stop.

I think my housemates turned up the heat all the way. It\’s so hot in my 8 x 8 room.

error.log is your friend. Repeat to self: it is located in var/log/apache/ All this navigation of unix reminds me of my cs days when I often would take the quick fix to problems. Like a band-aid.

Unfortunately, I still hate vi. I like pico. It reminds me of pine. It\’s cute except that the version (nano) they installed on the server has the delete action backwards. When I press delete in pico, it deletes things to the right of my cursor. It drives me crazy. Mostly because I don\’t know the shortcut to go the other way.

It was so strange to talk to someone who I had \”dated\”…when we had spoken for almost a year. My bitterness is in the background and now it\’s just a lack of trust that exists. The feelings are faded. A fire put out by neglect. A candle that lost its wick. When we talked yesterday night, we didn\’t ask each other about our respective love lives. Yet I felt like we treaded around it. An almost obligatory question usually comes up at some point – are you seeing anyone? It\’s a question to reflect one\’s acceptance of the separation and an obvious jealous stab of are you better off now than we were before?

So just a thought. When people start to date, isn\’t it always the case that they GAIN A LOT OF WEIGHT? I have observed such situations. Because the two of them need to go out, they need to go out to eat. And why should they limit themselves to salads especially when a SIX LB BURGER CAN BE FULLY PAID FOR?

Veering off in totally different direction, I would like to go to Clearview, PA. 2.5 hours from Pittsburgh. I would like to indulge myself with said burger.

I would like to share these two shocking images with you:

So nerds can try to look \”HAWT\”. Mr. Bill Gates, what happened to you!? But I love that floppy disk throwing action. Show me some of that.

On the topic of boy toys, is it just me or is there some nostalgia bug flying around? It can\’t be a coincidence that my FIRST BF, not to be NAIMED, and the mistake from MINNESOTA all have tried or have successfully contacted me within the last month. Especially since it has been more than a year that I have talked to these three. January is not the time of forgiveness and retrospect/reflection, is it?

Now if my second bf Alex suddenly talked to me, then it would not be a coincidence. And possibly even crisco.

My housemate Carol says that everything we do…everything we say…has to make sense to us otherwise we wouldn\’t do them. Is that really true? Do everything we do make sense? People often decide to do things depending on whether they feel like doing it. Is that rational? Is that logical?

So I took a banana off the top of the fridge today. Intending to eat it during class. But when I reached down to my pocket when I got to campus, it was gone. I am not upset that it disappeared, but rather curious of where it ended up. If I had dropped it on the way to the bus, then would it had become frozen in the 15 degree weather? Would it have frozen in the street (considering that it\’s mostly made out of water)? What would happen if a car ran over it? Would it squirt all over the place? And ultimately most of all, would it have ended up like how bananas appear in Saturday morning cartoons? Would someone step on it and slip…and people start laughing?

Exactly one year ago, I had this guy visit me. Yes, someone I met online; he was originally from Duluth, MinnySODA. (Note: he was 50 lbs lighter than the picture and clean-shaven this time last year.) What was I thinking? He was not driven. Not a fit for me. I was only 21 years old then. Yet now a year older, I know if in the same situation, I would have probably done the same thing. It\’s so hard to say no to what you want the most even though you know it\’s not right. It\’s easy to say yes to attention and admiration. Even if the rational mind knows such things will prevent lifelong dreams.

Today I remembered why I never wanted to be a sysadmin. What a painful job.

I performed my first rm -rf * today. It gave me such a power trip that I could delete things with a single command. Now if I could only do the same with my room. Too bad life doesn\’t come with a shell. At least not a physical one.

As I was performing \”maintenance\” on one of my yahoo accounts, I discovered I had an old e-mail addressed linked. An e-mail account that I hadn\’t used for more than 3 years. So I went to the site and tried to remember my password. Of course, my mind went blank. So I clicked forgot your password? It brought me to a question page and for some reason, my custom question was what was before juno.

lsfjlsdjflsjf

I have no idea what I meant. The ISP that I used before juno? Or did I mean the e-mail address that I used before juno? Maybe it was the Spanish month? Sigh. Yet another failure of the usability of passwords. Or maybe it\’s just me.

In other news, I fell down the stairs. Again.