A fun-filled day today. :) Well, almost.

I woke up to the beeping of my cell phone at 7:30 am. After lying there for a few minutes, I got up. By 8 am, I was out the door and on highway 24 speeding toward Berkeley. Somehow, yes I ended up on Stuart rather than Blake. I don\’t know how that happened, when I was thinking Blake all the way there. Eventually though, I found Sri and we drove to the Alameda Food Bank.

Can you believe it? Things haven\’t changed at the Food Bank since the last time I volunteered there. Mary Schoen, the director, did the same thing as usual. Blah, it was dull…and exhausting. Although this time, I was more \”mature\”, because Sri got me into the mood, it just wasn\’t as fun as sorting at the Contra Costa Food Bank. It was pretty interesting to sort the salvage on the psuedo-grocery shelves though. Sri looked as excited as I was. :)

Mary refused to let Sri stay the extra hour and because I didn\’t know the way back, we got stuck going to San Francisco. Although I wanted to turn back, Sri convinced me to pay the two dollar toll to cross the bridge. We picked up lunch at Togos in San Francisco downtown and came back to the Food Bank within an hour. That was dumb. Haha, but Sri and I had a couple of good laughs.

After determining that I wouldn\’t be seeing A Walk To Remember with Stacee and Simon, I decided to just head over to Sam\’s place. By the way, Sri and Sam condemned watching A Walk to Remember. Mandy Moore? Are you sure you don\’t have posters all over your wall? You know, critics said that movie was only meant for ditzy teenage girls and gay guys. Okay, I laughed. So boo me. Anyway, at Sam\’s dorm, I helped (well listened) while he was able to solve the second problem of the cs homework. Assembly language is so dramatically complicated. Can you believe it…like four lines just to say z=4? Anyway, I got that done.

I then dragged Sam with me to the Food Bank to pick up Sri. By now, Sam figured out that I wasn\’t the greatest driver and in his words, \”you tend to gauge things incorrectly\”. Yes. I drove the two of them to Safeway. Then I dropped off Sri at his apartment.

Sam had invited me to dinner. So instead of the dee see, we decided to try a restaurant on College Avenue. Yes, he made me drive there although he had degraded my driving skills already. :p We ate at La Mediterranee after walking from restaurant to restaurant on the street. Not bad…we kept commenting on every dish. Intersting stuff. :) Although personally I wouldn\’t recommend it to the nonadventurous.

Then I got my EE43 pre-lab done. YAY!

Bottom idea of today: why doesn\’t everybody ever comment? :p Remember I have a tracker. :D

i just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you\’re special
i believed those words and i was so happy

you should have told me you didn\’t like me any more
but i couldn\’t see that and you just rushed me
although i will curse you, i\’ll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

i heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
i don\’t think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again

we separated today
you said you wanted me to be happy
and find a better person than you
you\’re just like every other man
didn\’t you tell me you loved me?
actually, i don\’t want you to be happy
what if you find a girl who\’s prettier than me
and live happily with her?
what it makes you forget me
when im hurting so much, so much i want to die
when i still love you so much…

don\’t take advantage of a girl\’s willingness
to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
i didn\’t know that to be born as a girl
and to be loved was so hard
although i will curse you i\’ll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

although i will curse you i\’ll still miss you
since i am a girl, to whom love is everything

Hey babe
the pain
it\’s not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but i know now
i\’ve been blind
you told me that youd never let me down
whenever i needed you you\’d always be here
i can forgive but i cant forget
even though you hurt me
i still love you
i still love you

Last weekend, my sister sent me a music video in Korean. (Yes, that\’s where the above translated lyrics come from) Somehow, the vivid storyline of sacrifice was so heart-tugging that it made me cry. Yes, even though the characters didn\’t even speak. After a lot of research (a lot of time on google), I figured out the English translation of the song: Because I am a girl [or woman depending on the translator] was sung by Kiss, a new Korean group made up of three members with weird stage names – Mini, Jini, and Umji.

So why…is love always blind?

Maybe I am a wimp or something, but I find myself doing favors for people without hesitation. Nooooo…not sexual favors, you sickos!

Like how Eddie asked me to write his personal college essay and \”tutor\” him in SATs. I couldn\’t help it, because he had that helpless look in his eyes.

And like how I carted Xing back and forth to Sunvalley Mall. That trip put 100 miles on my car…in one day. Not to mention the gas I wasted when we were stuck in traffic at the Caldecott tunnel.

And how I would walk to my friends\’ apartments 20 minutes away willingly…without any complaint. I know my sister does the exact same thing. We feel resentful sometimes.

And now I go psychotic wondering whether people are taking advantage of me. Is this bitterness even valid?

I know how to stalk. :) And because I am cheap, I am never going to pay $100 for some heavy duty stalking.

Number one tool: google.com – the best search engine in the world. Search for the full name or even aim screenname. All you want is some more info, right? I have the microsoft accessories installed in my browser so all I have to do is type \”gg name\” in the address…then BOOM, I\’ll find out where you have posted, where you have signed guestbooks, where you live…

Number two tool: university student directory if the college of that person is known. it\’s amazing that people don\’t know what they have in there. As for me, I made sure only my e-mail address showed up. I get a lot of spam already, so why not get some more? ;)

Number three tool: infospace.com. now this may not be the most helpful thing, but it\’ll help you narrow the location if the stalker calls your cell with an unblocked number. I simply love reverse lookup.

Number four tool: white pages. Although this isn\’t helpful especially since people are more aware of their privacy in this area, it might help if you lost that helpful phone number. Last time I used the yellow pages successfully was when I lost my friend\’s phone number…but fortunately I recognized her mom\’s name and found it in the phone book (after flipping through ten pages). Good stuff. :)

Number five tool: their friends. Human beings naturally have big mouths. I know I do.

Go get \’em!

At the rate that I have been blogging (like 3-4 posts a day), I think I will have people running for cover pretty soon. Although I haven\’t been blogging for more than a week (I don\’t really count my journaling, but it\’s true…I am a devoted journaler), it seems like I am going to be addicted to blogging from the start.

I took this blogaholic test and got 60% [according to the test, I fall in the same category of people scoring 50%-80%]. Ugh, what does that say about me? The average score was 47.6%. Only 300 people have scored higher than me. But 1196 people have scored lower than me. Just 122 people made the same grade as me.

Then it says, \”You are a dedicated weblogger. You post frequently because you enjoy weblogging a lot, yet you still manage to have a social life. You\’re the best kind of weblogger. Way to go!\”

True that. Hehe, that\’s what Jeff said too about me. :)

I just made $60. :) Well, okay fine…I made about $54. That\’s even more than I made from selling the PS2. Yesterday I discovered that my java book from a class (which duh, my parents paid for) during the summer was taking up precious space on my shelf. I decided to list it at Amazon Marketplace. I was planning to list the highest price possible, because I noticed that there was only one person who had it listed. You see…that means there must have been a demand for the text. :)

I think I\’ll make a copy of the cd for myself. Then I\’ll send it.

By the way, that java class during the summer totally sucked. The instructor was a dimwit and most students were struggling with the concept of printing text on screen.

Hello, world!!!

Yay, I got my CS61C account form. I could have gotten account forms yesterday when I was \”dragged\” to Sam\’s section, but I didn\’t want people there to be robbed of a nice login. Then again, my login isn\’t that great either. Now you can e-mail me.

It\’s strange. CS people are very strange. They are mostly asian too. My discussion section was only 30% female. Hmmm…

It\’s freakin\’ cold in my apartment. Yesterday night, both of my roommates were complaining how cold it was here compared to the weather at home. The thing is I am supposed to be used to this weather. Both of my roommates come down south (San Jose and LA). As for me, I just live twenty minutes away from Berkeley.

Then why can\’t I stand the cold? Truly, no normal human being can. Then again, at home, my parents rarely risk the chance of having a high gas/electric bill.

I want a portable heater!

One of my friends said that I looked like a fifty year old lady in the main graphic above. Let\’s give this friend a name. Cliff said that I looked old!

I had intended to blur the graphic enough so that nobody could recognize me. Yet when I made it indistinguishable, the graphic just didn\’t look right. So yes, you can recognize me. I am wearing my latest favorite piece of clothing – a duster that I got for only $19 at Wet Seal. Although personally I don\’t like Wet Seal (scary salespeople and not-so-ecofriendly company), I saw the duster marked down from its original price of $75. So duh I had to get it. :)

Do you think I look fifty years old?

First day of class.

First day of the cycle of torture.

How can readers cost so much? I paid $50 for a thick reader. What\’s up with that?