this week in sum:

monday:
class
cog sci study group
work

tuesday:
class
finish perl hw
gym

wednesday:
class
meeting
ling study group
cog sci study group

thursday:
class
work out
review
cog sci study group
cog sci study group

friday:
class
office hours
class
cog sci study group
blah dinner

then tomorrow!
saturday:
orientation for work
cog sci study group

sunday:
cs study \”group\”
cog sci study group
then massive last-minute procrastination

Needless to say, I have been inspired by phatgirl to start \”exercising\”. But I don\’t believe in diets…so my usual meal plan will stay the same.

BUT LET\’S DO THIS:

Weight : UNKNOWN, because I don\’t own a scale.
Body Fat : UNKNOWN, because I am too cheap to buy a fat scale and too lazy to swoop into Sharper Image to use their displays

Exercise : 10-15 minute run around the Berkeley neighborhood. Not sure how long it was, but I put a pan of frozen fries in the oven (yes, I left it on when I was not in my apartment OMG) and when I came back, it was done.

Foods :

Half cup of Jamba Juice Strawberries Wild ($1, the student advocate office was selling these on Sproul). BUT I DON\’T KNOW IF IT WAS FAT FREE.

A taco melt. ($3.79) with OMG FATTENING GROUND BEEF, tomato salsa, OMG FATTY CHEESE, and OMG WATERY BEANS.

Oh yeah and my fries. I like my fries SALTY.

Comments : Photos on request. I set my alarm at 11:30 am so that I would have time to prepare for my 12:30 pm class. When it went off, I turned it off and went back to sleep. Then suddenly after a dream of Xing showing me photos of her trying on Tram\’s sister\’s wedding dress, I woke up and my clock said 1:49 pm. I basically ran out the door. But oddly enough, the campus clock tower was playing the noon song…and I realized it was only 11:49 am. DOH. Yeah so back to the comments. SO…UH, YEAH!

On a whim, I decided to unblock everybody on my aim list except for THIS ONE WOMAN FROM NYC OMG SHE WAS SO ANNOYING THAT SHE DESERVES TO BE BLOCKED *COUGH*

BIRTHDAY WISH LIST AGAIN (since my b-day is coming up very soon!) Interesting that from last year, I got the majority of the list now.

disclaimer: I am not greedy. I would personally prefer PRESENCE over PRESENTS.

1. presence of all my friends on my birthday! :D
2. an impressive gpa at Berkeley
3. portable music player (I probably would buy this one on my own…)
4. an ibook
5. hand-written letters in the (snail) mail
6. a nice internship/research position during the summer
7. airplane ticket to Minny Soda and/or Michigan (__ *cough* New YAWK)
8. a maid for my apartment (hey wanna clean my apartment for me?)
9. DEE VEE DEES to add to my collection of only ONE DVD
10. to rule the world and yours too
11. to write my autobiography and publish it
12. a new stalkee. I need to practice my stalking skillz.
13. a segway, plz
14. copies of The Catcher in the Rye
15. a pass to the Sundance Film Festival!
16. CANDY. CANDY!!!! (thx to cheez for reminding me of the omg cannot miss item)
17. sunglasses (no trendy!)

Everybody I know in Berkeley, an image thanks to the wonders of buddyzoo.com (*pimps it*) Note: some of those people are people with multiple screennames – i.e. Shinelun

It\’s always interesting to find that anybody I meet in Berkeley will be at most three degrees of separation from someone I already know. College is such a networking environment. Look at that webby web!!!!

A to Z of the week.

A is for my attitude that I have been trying to work on
B is for B&J free cone day. I went back twice.
C is for crisis like every other week.
D is for demons as they\’re trying to pull me down again
E is for the never-ending stream of e-mail that I get in my inbox
F is for the Food Network which has provided me with my major source of entertainment when I arrive home
G is for graduation commencement that i got a ticket for! :D Thanks April!
H is for haircut everybody \”liked\” except for one person \”who told the truth\”. Hey, I always know they\’re lying! :D Thanks for suggesting to spend $25, aaron!
I is for interview that gave me an offer that I turned down
J is for Jimmy Eat World – Goodbye Sky Harbor, a 16 minute song
K is for okay, a word that I often use when I am mad but I am trying not to show it
L is for Lingustics class, which I am starting to really enjoy
M for the states that I shall visit one day: Minny Soda, Michigan…and…MONTANA?
N is for nostalgia when sweet memories of the past return
O is for orgasmic alan
P is for the long distance phone call that shook my stability
Q is for quitting
R is for random phone call guy, who I saw walking up the street in the rain
S is for my sissy who is cool!
T is for Toyta Celica, which Shinelun has gladly driven me around Berkeley in. THX!!!
U is for MORE IS UP
V is for Vegetarian dinner. My mom made me feel guilty that I wasn\’t going to Mother\’s Day dinner next weekend so I took them out to a pseudo-vegetarian restaurant Fresh Choice
W is for work.
X is for X-men 2 of course!!!!
Y is for why?!
Z is for zoned out all week.

Always liked free things. Get your free cupholder!!!

edit: BEWARE OF YOUR DOORS.

F it. I am not feeling like myself lately, but I was never myself in the first place.

Dated February 12, 1998:
You don\’t ICQ much, you have many wishes, many of which may not have come true, you seem to live an unhappy life, just one that slowly carries you everyday. Never really looking foward to the next day. You have incredible potential, you don\’t realize it til something major happens, a semester grade, dumped by a boyfriend, etc. You think quite a lot, sometimes not enough, sometimes too much. You open your mouth at wrong times, and at important times, shut up when you something wrong is taking place.

I don\’t know why that snippet from an e-mail still has so much impact on me after so many years. It was one of the first e-mails that Alan, my first bf, sent me. To think, this 14 year old could change the life of a then 15 year old so much. I still blame him for a lot of my negativity in the recent years, but I should one day thank him for finding the optimism in life.